My Journey Out of Darkness Into Light
Growing up a clairsentient empath made everything I experienced incredibly intense and overwhelming. Clairsentient empaths are deeply sensitive people who receive intuitive impressions by feeling the vibrations and energies of people and places around them. They also absorb the emotions and physical pains of others as if it were their own. Because I did not understand this, I believed that everything I was feeling and experiencing was mine.
From a very young age, I was told I was too sensitive, too stupid, and incapable of achieving anything worthwhile. I heard this so often that it became my reality. In a world where I felt completely alone and unloved, the one person who brought comfort in my life was my older brother, Danny. He was always my safe place, my protector. He was the person I turned to when I needed reassurance that everything would be okay.
When I was 17 years old, my life changed forever when Danny died in a car accident. The devastation I felt was all consuming. I fell into a dark abyss, continuously falling but never reaching the bottom. I carried my pain in silence for years, unable to confront and process the emptiness I felt. Instead, I immersed myself in self-destructive behavior – drinking, drugs, and partying – trying unsuccessfully to fill that hole in my heart.
At the age of 25, I started to see and feel Spirit around me. My first experience connecting with Spirit happened in 2008 during a trip to Vietnam. I volunteered myself to channel Danny without really believing I could. But to my utter surprise, he came through. It was so unexpected and shocking - I was in absolute disbelief. But this is where my spiritual journey started. That brief moment when I felt him come through opened a level of consciousness I had suppressed since I was a child. Despite this realization, I was not ready for it. I did not fully understand nor was I equipped to handle my newfound abilities. After Vietnam, unexplainable things started to happen. I woke up several times to Danny and other spirits by my bed. Because I feared the unknown, I closed myself off from receiving any further connection. I was too afraid to wholeheartedly embrace it.
Through the years I tried multiple times to seek comfort and healing with traditional therapy. Numerous attempts of seeing therapist after therapist and going to countless sessions did not seem to work. I could not crack the wall I had so strongly woven around my heart from the pain of feeling worthless all my life and the devastation of losing my brother. I was resigned to accept what felt like a life-long curse of enduring pain.
That all changed when I met a spiritual medium at my sister’s birthday party in 2010. With the help of her intuitive gifts, I processed my grief, reconnected with Danny on a deeper level and started the journey of healing my soul with self-love. Several years later, circumstances out of my control forced me to realize I loved myself enough to stop accepting the lies I grew up believing. With a renewed sense of self, I embraced the beauty of my truth and the profound abilities gifted to me. I let go of all the things that were no longer serving my highest good.
I have gone through the unimaginable and unbearable pain of losing a loved one. I know how dark and lonely it can be to not feel seen, loved and worthy. I have also been blessed with a healing journey that has brought me to a place of peace and clarity. Healing the wounds of my soul would not have been possible without the spiritual teachers in my life walking beside me and guiding me through it.
I always knew I wanted to give back to my community what my spiritual teachers gave to me. With the unconditional support of my guides, both in Spirit and earth bound, I took a leap of faith. I found the courage to live out my purpose of helping my community navigate their healing journeys by intuitively guiding others to clarity with their life experiences, and serving as a conduit for soul-to-soul conversations between spiritual and physical beings with the intention of healing both worlds.
"We're all just walking each other home"
- Ram Dass